"And I can't remember your name"

“And I can't remember your name”

And something is sickly wrong with me

And I sleep with my toes to the headboard to feel different

And I have had terrible dreams I need to sleep less

And the phone works two ways but texting you requires a gall I don’t yet possess

And I thought it was the smoke that made my head hurt but I can’t wake up to the sun anymore

And I can’t bear to see your face

And what is the weight of the world to me is nothing to you

And words fail me

And nothing profound is born from the mouth of someone so ill

And I feel terrible

And it’s only going to get worse

And at least when it does I’ll have a tangible excuse for my shortcomings

And when the dust settles I’ll have lost you

And I’ll be numb to you

And I’ll forget what made me whole

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